[00:00.00]"Is Happiness Just a Word?"[00:07.29]Run(Go ahead and)[00:20.44]Darkness comes beneath the dying stars[00:23.46]With all the blood and scars[00:27.16]I'm gonna hunt you[00:29.02]With fear I appear[00:32.74]Nothing will stop me[00:35.51]You crave the[00:36.35]Creature in me[00:38.27]Shattered, I will capture you[00:41.64]So run[00:42.65]My family don't understand what I go through[00:45.19]Under diagnosed for 20 years, ain't never broke through[00:47.61]You ever been in such a fog you don't know you?[00:50.40]Never being able to do the **** you're supposed to?[00:53.02]I wouldn't wish it on anyone that I'm close to[00:55.47]Wouldn't wish it on anybody that I'm opposed to[00:58.75]There's not an accurate diagnosis to show you[01:01.21]Basic neurobiology isn't close to it[01:03.93]I'm watching life as a spectator[01:06.48]I can't help myself, even though I possessed data[01:09.25]It's not a part of my spirit to want to test nature[01:11.60]You think you know what I'm feeling, cousin, then let's wager[01:14.67]I'm having trouble retaining new information[01:16.87]Familiar scenes starting to look foreign- derealization[01:19.68]Everybody tired of being patient[01:22.45]Mama wondering why her baby crying in the basement[01:24.81]Constant rumination just exacerbates it[01:28.06]To the point where I can't barely narrate it[01:30.37]I've had doctors tell me that my mind is fascinating[01:32.90]But they can't tell me why the sickness has been activated[01:35.71]Darkness comes beneath the dying stars[01:39.28]With all the blood and scars[01:41.95]I'm gonna hunt you[01:43.77]With fear I appear[01:46.08]Nothing will stop me[01:50.00]You crave the[01:50.99]Creature in me[01:52.81]Shattered, I will capture you[01:56.07]So run[01:57.52]My head don't work, the meds don't work[01:58.99]But I don't want to be dead, dead don't work[02:02.40]Sleep's the cousin of death, the bed don't work[02:05.07]Maybe I'd rather be dead; dead don't hurt[02:07.73]Realization of an inherent emptiness[02:10.24]Maybe that's another sin for the pessimist[02:13.00]Possibly I am a jinn with a exorcist[02:15.56]I've fallen because I've been on the precipice[02:18.37]Maybe it's my mama's possible regret[02:20.97]Maybe it's a neurological neglect[02:23.89]Maybe it's the reason why water's wet[02:25.69]The angular gyrus and where the frontal lobe connect[02:29.20]But maybe I'm being too complicated for you[02:31.86]Maybe I should just be calm and explain it to you[02:34.33]The psychiatrist thinking they could fool you[02:36.89]Paxel, Zoloft, it's just wasteful to you[02:39.55]I've tried meditation, tried to sit in silence[02:42.56]But how the **** that help a neurochemical imbalance?[02:44.96]Why would you tell a person that they were childish[02:47.43]Without an understanding of the pain that they surround in?[02:50.29]I always feel foggy somatic detachment[02:53.46]It's like my body isn't connected to actions[02:56.16]It destroys everything that's affected the fragments[02:58.37]I don't have nothing but senses and sadness[03:01.39]Darkness comes beneath the stars[03:05.81]With all the blood and all the scars[03:10.93]Nothing will stop me[03:16.70]You crave the creature inside of me[03:22.11]Darkness comes beneath the dying stars[03:26.12]With all the blood and scars[03:28.53]I'm gonna hunt you[03:30.74]With fear I appear[03:33.15]Nothing will stop me[03:36.92]You crave the[03:37.93]Creature in me[03:39.59]Shattered, I will capture you[03:43.11]So run