[00:12.189]Sometimes i sit at home and wonder how it be[00:17.879]if he had loved me truely loved me yes, i learned[00:26.579]Awhile ago that kind of thing it never happens for me,[00:36.590]and so i go around and just pretend love[00:41.400]Is not for me i play the circus clown around[00:46.520]my friends make them laugh and they wont see that[00:51.100]U never let them see u sweat[00:53.360]dont want them to think the pain runs deep,[00:59.470]Lord know its killing me[01:01.450][01:04.660]So i put on my make up put a smile on my face[01:12.350]and if anyone ask me everything is ok im[01:19.600]Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me[01:26.100]cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my[01:31.650]Face...on my face singing,[01:37.759]la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la la[01:47.800]Laaaa[01:49.560][01:51.650]Sometimes i sit at home by the phone hopin[01:57.360]he might call me but he dont call me but then i[02:04.400]Realize dreams come true arent for girls like me[02:12.809]not like me, and so i go around with my head[02:19.349]Up like it aint no thing and when the boys around[02:24.599]with all my friends im into other things cuz[02:29.939]U never let them see u sweat dont want them[02:33.859]to think the pain runs deep, lord knows its killing me[02:40.918][02:44.649]So i put on my make up put[02:49.189]a smile on my face and if[02:52.819]anyone ask me everything is ok im[02:58.929]Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me[03:05.990]cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my[03:13.809]Face...on my face oooh[03:17.149]Its not easy (thing to do)[03:17.599][03:21.169]sometimes its hard to (face the truth)[03:23.579]its not the life that i[03:25.789]Would choose but what else can i do if[03:30.990]he dont love me no if[03:33.349]he dont want me im not about to[03:37.999]Sit around let myself go (gooooo)[03:44.280][03:44.739]So i put on my make up put[03:49.329]a smile on my face and if[03:52.609]anyone ask me everything is ok im[03:58.779]Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me[04:04.969]cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my[04:11.399]Face...on my face oooh[04:17.499][04:19.519]singing, la la la, la la,